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Hope: Chapter One

Just realised I never put up most of my story Hope on livejournal. I did originally post the first three parts but it has been rewritten since.  I'm deleting those and will post the rewritten chapters.

Summary: Post Chosen & NFA.  A job results in Xander bumping into someone he never expects and Spike finds that the past always catches up with you. Xander demands some answers especially about Buffy being left in the dark.  Will Spike reconsider his actions and if he does what will Buffy say?

Disclaimer:  As much as I wish I owned this world, I have to learn to be satisified with fanfiction.

Author's Note:

Please read and review. I hope you enjoy reading this. Spuffy will come I promise.  This is just the beginning.  I decided to make Xander grow up a little and have a new perspective having lost Anya. 


Chapter One: Chance

It was a chance encounter that Xander Harris never anticipated.  Actually as Xander would later  point out,  it was more like a chance glance of a familiar shock of peroxide blond hair and long leather duster.  He was in Los Angeles on a mission for the newly formed Watcher's Council when he came across what most people would deem a street brawl.   William the Bloody, or as he was more commonly known Spike, was fighting with several vampires at once.  To say that Xander was shocked was an understatement considering that Spike was supposed to be nothing more than dust in the Hellmouth.  

"Well Captain Peroxide, you are looking awfully spry for a pile of ash," Xander exclaimed. Spike did a double take and his indecision allowed one of the vampires to land a solid right hook on his nose.   Spike cursed. 

"Damn it," he said holding his nose before throwing himself back into the fray.

Spike was more than holding his own but he reached into his duster and threw another stake to Xander.   

"Are you just going to stand there or give me a hand?" he said impatiently.

  Xander joined in the fray and between them the other vampires soon were nothing more than dust in the air.  The euphoria and adrenaline from the fight soon evaporated leaving the two in an uncomfortable silence.

"Spike it's good to see you," Xander began awkwardly.

Spike looked at him eyebrow raised.

"Scratch that!  It is never good to see you!" Xander amended quickly, "How have you been?"

"Dead, deader, ghost, vampire in Hell A, vampire in actual Hell and then back in Hell A again."

Xander just stood there, his mouth open wide.

"Cat got your tongue, boy?" Spike asked.

"There was I just thinking you were dust" Xander stuttered.

"Actually I was."  Spike smirked, "But as it turns out I was posted in an envelope and landed in Great Poof's office."

"Wish I was there for that conversation" Xander grinned.

"Well not so much conversation as violence or at least attempted bloodshed anyway" Spike admitted.

They both laughed but then the awkward silence overcame them once more.

"Gee Spike what the hell are you doing here?  Does Buffy know you are back?"

"Quit the twenty questions!" Spike snapped.  Xander however did not lower his gaze.

"No she does not know."  Spike said softly looking down at his leather boots.

Xander shook his head sadly. 

"Spike I always thought you were many things but I never had you down as a coward."

Spike flinched and glared at the darker haired man.

"I was trying to do the right thing.  You can't imagine how difficult it's been being without her."

"Yes I can" Xander replied his eyes darkening at the memory his fallen ex girlfriend,

"It's not your decision as to what Buffy does with her life and it is not mine and certainly not Angel's.  It's about time that the men in Buffy's life accepted that she is an adult and is perfectly capable of making her own decisions and her own mistakes."

"I am a man now am I" Spike interrupted.

This only served to annoy Xander all the more. 

"Shut up!." he said.  Why was it Spike always seemed to bring the immature child in him?

He was trying to have a serious conversation with Spike of all people.  Who was he kidding?  Spike was not even a person after all.

"I don't like you.  I never will.  However I still think she deserves the truth.  You have to tell her you are undead again.  Personally I hope she dusts you but she has earned the right to make that decision herself."

The normally arrogant swagger was gone as the vampire deflated before his eyes.

"I can't" Spike croaked "She'll never forgive me for not telling her"

"She's forgiven you for a lot worse." Xander pointed out.

Spike winced remembering the fateful night that had prompted him to seek out his soul.

"So Bleached wonder," Xander continued, "either you tell her or I will and if it ends up with being me the messenger boy then I will be sure to point out to Buffy how you did not care enough to tell her yourself that you were back."

Spike met the challenge in the young man's eyes and bowed his head.  Xander was right.  Spike had never thought a day would come when the boy was making sense.  Wow the kid had grown up a lot. 

"So what else have you been up to besides being all flamey and dusty?" Xander asked.  His curiosity was getting the better of him.

"Been fighting the good fight with Captain Forehead" Spike answered mysteriously

"How did that happen exactly?  I mean how do you get from the violence to the working together?"  Xander asked.

"Long story!" Spike declared.

Xander decided then and there to start afresh with the vampire.  He would never forget what Spike was but he owed it to Buffy and hell he even owed it to Spike after he saved the world.

"Well I have both time and a wad of notes courtesy of Giles.  I think both of us could do with a drink.  Fancy a beer?"

"Not likely but a Jack Daniels would be nice."

Xander rolled his eyes.  Some things never change.

"Jack Daniels it is then." Xander conceded, "But I still don't like you."

"The feeling is mutual, mate.  Still don't like you much either."

To be continued


Thank you so much for reading.  Please review.  Feedback would be great.  This chapter originally was a one shot and I wrote a sequel but as I am posting it anew here I am trying to amalgamate the two.  So hopefully it gels together.

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Nice start. Good to see Xander grown up a bit and not bad at the blackmail either - lol. Look forward to the next chapter.

Aw thank you. I have ten chapters complete, so there shouldn't be much of a wait for the next one. I think there's a lot of Xander hate in Spuffy circles sometimes, but I like to think Xander did a lot of growing up especially in season 7 and I think losing Anya would have inspired even more character growth.

S7 Xander is my favorite Xander - I really enjoy his arc and his maturity after the events of late S6; I agree there's a lot of hate in Spuffy circles but I try to be fair to all the characters; the bashing of one side at the expense of the other doesn't feel quite right to me in part because it's antithetical to the spirit of the show.

Anyhoo - please do carry on. Post-NFA with Spike, Buffy, Xander AND Xander dealing with his grief over Anya (and thus his own hypocrisy re: Spike)? You're speaking my language.

I agree completely. Season 7 Xander is my favourite too. I try not to bash characters too as much as possible. Besides, I don't think there's any character that I hate, although Kennedy and Riley do come close.

Thanks so much for reading.

There are a lot of Xander bashers out there and he was kind of a jerk though he was a teenage boy growing up and he did show true growth in S7. I have read some lovely Xander fic, all of it slash with Spike where he has continued his growth from S7.

Have to admit not a huge Kennedy fan either and I don't think I have ever read a pro Kennedy story. Felt sorry for Riley. He was always going to miss out.

Xander getting the upper hand at Spike in conversation, wit and blackmail is very funny. :)

Oh, how the bleached have fallen. *g*

*giggles* Xander 1 Spike 0: It could be a sign of the apocalypse. lol

Thanks very much. :)

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